Monday, October 3, 2011

Removing myself from the dramatic equation

Remember those equations in high school or college math that no matter how hard you try you will never be able to solve. It doesn't matter how hard you try or how many formulas you apply to try to understand, you won't because something are just unsolvable?

My life has been like that over the past year. So many different equations in all areas of my life that have been impossible to solve, and I haven't made a move on them yet.  Breaking up with Apache forced me out of the biggest unsolvable equation, but there were other negative relationships that I've been dealing with over the past few months. As I may have mentioned, I'm seeing a therapist who has been invaluable over the last few months. One of the biggest things we have talked about, other than my pain about Chris, has been how I seem to find myself at the center of drama. And we've worked on strategies about how to get out of that. It's a strategy I call "removing myself from the equation." As Susan says, "Let 'X' equal someone else for a while."

The last negative situation in my life has been the situation with my roommate (Cruella) and I. I moved in with Cruella, a fellow teacher, in June, just after my breakup with Apache. Things weren't perfect from the beginning, but i figured they'd smooth over. They got worse after she had her scumbag boyfriend move in "temporarily" in mid-August. Temporarily, hah. yeah right.  Things came to a head this weekend after the condo association sent us a letter citing us for having two dogs; both are hers. The complex only allows one, and, furthermore, she walks the dogs on the property, which is a no no, even though she cleans up.  Talking to her about it this morning, I found out that our landlord asked when I was moving out, because apparently Cruella told her I was only there "temporarily." NEWS TO ME!  I politely told her I would be out by the end of the week, packed up my clothes and that cat, and went to my parents.  Removing myself from the equation. It's for the best, because the drama situation is only going to get worse,  because she has no plans of getting rid of either dog, and the association is pissed.

In other news, I'm sorry that I haven't been on as much. Being back to teaching has made me a hermit as I struggle to juggle work, grad school, and seeing Magic. Its near impossible to juggle all three most days, especially when I'm depressed, as I have been on and off. As for my weight, I'm doing the best I can. I really don't have enough time to make it to the gym consistently, but I've just been trying to watch what I eat. I know that I'm gaining, cause the pics I took today with my friends at today's Renaissance Faire visit look hideous, but I'm doing what I can with what time I have. 

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Ouch. Cruella sounds horrible. I think that getting out of that situation was probably for the best. *hugs!*

Sara Strand said...

Oh man... one thing I never had to deal with was room mates. Well, I've had two, but they were both boyfriends and one I married. ;) So I'm super lucky in that regard because I don't know anybody who's had a good experience with it.